My journey of self discovery began when I moved to Brussels in the year 2007. I was this youngest sibling always protected at home, papa's girl. Even when I moved out from my parents place to join working in an IT firm I thankfully had lots of friends to take care. Had lived in a 2 BHK with 6 to 7 friends for company in Pune. Actually I had never known what it felt to be away from home !!
As was the trend then everyone asked for an onsite after a few months. Following the trend I too had requested my then manager for an onsite and surprisingly he came back to me one day saying that there was a position available and whether I would like to travel ?
For other people onsite mean't more foreign currency, exposure to client team etc. For me it then just meant a way to escape marriage which is the primary focus of any Indian girl in her late twenties. I had this enormous desire to travel and discover as many places before I was tied down to a stranger who probably didn't share my interests. I had no clue what these upcoming years would actually hold for me !
The first place which I made home in Brussels was this studio apartment on 81 Rue Beckerstraat. It was a last minute decision since the previous arrangement made by colleagues got cancelled. It was a small place, pretty ok for a single soul. My belonging's summed up to a TV, single bed, shelf, fridge, induction plate and a dining table. The best part of the house was the little balcony facing the road. That's the best part of apartments in Brussels. They can arrange for a breathing place even in a studio apartment.
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| Unused place - Kitchen area |
The owner, his wife and 2 kids stayed upstairs and the kids were adorable (curly hair, rosy lips, pink cheeks type). They often came to my place with dad for fixing the room heater or the tap. I wanted to talk with them but if you are in Brussels French, Dutch or German are your official languages. Hardly few people know how to communicate in English, at least back then.
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| Soul Company -- Pengu Gifted by Stan :) |
In short I was living alone in this place with no one to talk. It was very overwhelming for a person who never had any shortage of company. If you have shared a similar experience then you would know how the silent walls start haunting you. I had colleagues staying some distance apart and would very often end up having dinner at their places. They seemed to be very tolerant indeed even though they would have preferred some alone time.Cooking for myself has never been encouraging for me. Even today if I am left alone I will survive on packaged food or ready to eat stuff.
So the journey had just begun: Killing time at home with Bollywood dvds you get at an Indian/ Pakistani store. Intruding on colleagues who would later become life long friend's and staring at the wall were my only pastimes. In short a lonely girl had started her journey in Brussels trying to fight the silence. Far far away from home. Hoping things would change soon for the better !